My little girl will be two next month. Hard to believe. I always enjoy her, but lately there has been an extra sweetness to our time together (which is all day everyday). The thing is, her time as my only child is limited. Her brother or sister will be here before we know it and that is really going to change things. Sunday night after a particularly precious bedtime routine I sat down and thought about how much it was about to change and before I knew it I had tears rolling down my cheeks. Don't get me wrong, this is a very wanted pregnancy! It was planned and prayed for and we are elated. It's just that Emaline will not be able to be the only focus of the majority of my time and energy come March. My love for her is fierce. It has taken hold of me with such power that I sometimes find it shocking. It is the love of a mother for her child. It absolutely blows my mind that I will feel this for another human being. It seems inconceivable, even impossible. Yet, I know it's true. This little one growing inside me will steal my heart forever, just like Big Sister did. This baby is a gift to us all. More to come on that later...

Nearly every night I sneak into my girls room and scoop her into my arms for snuggles. I rock her and hold her and pray for her while she quietly dreams. I won't always be able to do this. One day she'll be too big for me to hold and instead I will hold the memories of these days close in my heart. The days where it was just she and I sitting by a pond feeding ducks and her being content just to sit in my lap and let me stroke her hair. The days when my kisses cure everything. The days when it's just she and I in the house when she says to me "I mama's girl" or "I luh you, mama" for no reason at all except that she loves me. This is a special, miraculous time and I have a feeling that these are some of my best days. Not everyday is rainbows and flowers. It's easy to take the good times for granted when I'm sick, she's cranky and we both need a nap. Life is forever changing and is not promised to us and I am doing my best to savor this sweet times. It is, she is, slipping through my fingers.

I'm KNOCKED UP!

I am pregnant. With child. Expecting. This fact makes me feel, in a word, elated. I am a mother of two. Emaline will be a sister. It's all just so exciting!